Life.
It really is unpredictable.
You can never know what's going to happen in the future, though you can plan but sometimes it won't come true. You might just let it slide or you may feel very frustrated about it.
For me, I tend to let it slide.
I don't ever let my hopes up, just for it to come crashing down on me.
Though it did happen once, I got really frustrated and the people all around me got affected as well. I guess sometime things just never meant happen. =)

Right now I'm at the end of my third semester in college. Three more semesters then I'll be receiving my Diploma in Business Studies. I do hope only three more semester to go. Just like before, this is the time to reminisce the past. The people that I've gotten to know and the people I have started to hate.

.Semester 1.

All I really got to say is that this was the best classmates I have gotten to know, DBS1J. We have become a family to each and everyone of us. We are very close to each other and nothing can change that. We are going to keep our tradition going by having a small reunion every semester break!

.Semester 2.

My second semester housemates differ from my first semester. Although my first semester housemates I've gotten along with. I gotta say, the people of B-21-1 are the best. There are 11 of us. In this family we have a mother, a lot of sisters, an aunt, a neighbour, and was there a grandmother? Even though we have out fueds (who doesn't). We still stick by each other. According to a Malay phrase, "Air yang di cincang tak akan putus."

.Semester 3.
New place and new friends.
I don't know what is so special about this semester. My current housemates are the people from my semester 2 housemate and semester 1 classmates, therefore they are totally awesome. No doubt about it. My classmates are all new to me. Other than the dudes, I've known them before. Other than that, they have great views here. Meet some new friends, I've gotten close to them, love them, and care for them.

It's hard to imagine my fourth semester, without all these familiar faces.
That if I do move.

Once In A While

Once in a while we must think about what we feel, because most of the time we spent was thinking of others. When we have time to ourselves to think, a thought about life, we sometimes feel guilty because of all the misery we have cause to the people around us. Don't you ever wonder, if those people that you think about, think the same way about you? Deep inside you know they don't, but you never worry about it. You don't need another person to hate you, to hold grudges against you, you've had enough of it. You cried, you got mad, and you made faces, the ones that comes to you are who you should think about everyday. The one that hugged you when you cried, you're grateful to have them in your life. The one that bought you something to eat when they know you haven't eaten for the whole day and know that you won't even eat it, still begged you to have a bite. They care. The ones that turn your mood 360 degrees around. Singing loudly, screaming, laughing, you're grateful f0r each one of them, even when you barely know them. As for others, they don't know and you don't even plan on telling them that you had a time of sorrow, time of pain.

For the ones that you hurt, you're sorry. You truly are. You think about them, you thought about the moments you had with them. It can even bring you to tears once again, but you're stronger now. Hold it in. You want you call them, say sorry, but you don't know if they will accept you're apology. Whatever the outcome will be, you're grateful to have them in your life. They called you non-stop, you didn't pick up. Ego. Stubborn. It all plays a part. When the ringing stop, you want it to ring again but when it does, you don't pick. Stupid.

Life, there's up, there's down you know that, they know that.

Moment

I'm just waiting for that moment to come,

the moment for me to leave all my friends behind and make some new ones,

the moment to live for a day and not think about anyone,

the moment to say "I Love You" and meant it,

the moment to stand in line for the security check,

the moment to sit on the airplane and look at the clouds,

the moment to be in a foreign place,

the moment that I can forget about my past,

the moment where I can imagine about my future,

the moment when I realize why did I leave my friends,

the moment when I apologize to my friends,

the moment then I'm thankful when I still have friends who care about me.

One In a Million

May I ask you,
Do you know someone who hated you?
Do you know someone that thinks you stuck up?
Do you know someone who them and their friends despise you?

and may I ask you again,
Would you ever be friends with those people listed above?

Well, for me.
the answer for that last question is,
Yes.

Why?
because that's exactly what happen!
Weird ain't it?

Once upon a time I was a stuck up, self obsessive person to them but now we're friends!
They are cool, cute and crazy!
LOL.
What would my days be without seeing them!
Two of them seem to have "stolen" my rubber bracelet...
Take good care of it!

This Situation

HATE IT!
better yet,
Don't ASK me about it.
Don't TALK to me about it.
ARGHH!

Happy Day

Went to see my sister today.
I misses her dearly.
hung out from 2 - 5 pm
such a short time frame!
I treasure every second of it.

Here it comes again!

Gahh..!

Help me!I've been trying to control my emotion but tonight it has fail!
I missing everyone again!!!
It has brought me to the edge of tearing up, again.
Have not thought about it in a while, but all of the sudden old memories are playing in my head and it just doesn't seem to stop.
Songs are making me moody.
I MISS YOU!
I just want to shout it out loud.

Right Now

Right now,
Thursday, July 29th 2010. 12:49 am

MY MOOD
is

• Sad
• Frustrated
• Angry
• Helpless
• Missing a whole lot of people

I'm sorry for those who may think that I'm making a face at them or mad at them.
I'm not.
Blame mood swings.

The End Of A Relationship

It doesn’t talk, doesn’t have a face, a leg, a hand or even a head. It’s only 4.0 millimetres (0.16 in) wide, 90 millimetres (3.5 in) long, 6.9 millimetres (0.27 in) thick and weighs 42 grams (1.5 oz) and the only thing it has is a body. That is my iPod Nano. It was a first generation iPod Nano, it’s a white 4GB. It is the love of my life. Its life has ended on Friday, May 28, 2010. That also means it’s the end of our about 5 years relationship.

That small thing has changed my life a lot. It accompany me on my sleepless nights, the long awaiting hours, walks in the mall, time of sorrow, time of joy and happiness.

Oh, yeah did I cry. I would have it then my phones, I miss it so much. It was one of the things that I bought with my own money. Although it was my third iPod, it was the longest one I have.

The first iPod I had was a grey iPod Mini. I had for a while then I exchanged it for first generation black 2GB iPod Nano. I figure that 2GB wasn’t enough but my dad wouldn’t buy me another iPod unless I use my own money. So I did, and I didn’t change it ever since then. Until now, the start of my lonely days and nights.

Life Is Short.

So, don't take it for granted.

for these past few days...
I've been hit with so many bad and worst news.
Of course worst is being death.
A bad news would be to know that you've gotten cancer,
To those people sometimes it seem like its the end of the world.
Especially to those who gotten the news when it is at it worst stage and there's almost no chance of getting rid of it.

Although there has been a few death news none have been a personal one to me.
Most of them I barely know, but my parents know them well.
I can't just imagine if such news came to me.
But the only thing I could do is pray for them.

For those whose soul have left us, May you rest in peace.
Al-Fatihah.

The Past, Present, and Future. Part 3.

.The Future.

[No Picture]
(I don't know what I'll look like in a few years and its kind of impossible)

Let make this post full with questions.
Using who, why, what, where, when and how.

• Who will I be?
• Who will be my friends?

• Why am I there?
• Why did I do that?

• What is my job?
• What is status?

• Where am I living?
• Where do I work?

• When do I start working?
• When do I get married?

• How well do I manage my life?
• How did I survive in the real world?
  

The Past, Present, and Future. Part 2.

.The Present.

The present, which means right now, this moment in my life that will become my past in the next second.
What am I doing right now?
Well, I'm sitting in my room on my chair with my laptop in front of me.
Which is in front of my desktop on my desktop table which soon be outside my room.
Typing the story of my life because I have nothing better to do.
Next weekend I'll be going back to Johor.
My second oldest cousin is getting married.
Then on December 18th I'll be going to KLCC.
To watch a friend of mine, Najho, performing at Rantai.
Whatever the hell that is.

As my academic present,
I'm currently in my second semester in my first year in university.
Im studying business in UiTM.
The campus or college is just half an hour from my house.
Being there, doesn't give me the full experience on being a University student.
Our dorms are houses. Apartment houses.
One house contain 3 rooms and accommodate 12 students.
It has 24 floors.
Last semester I was on the 24th floor.
I already told the story in my older posts so I won't repeat it.
The next semester I'm on the 13th floor.
Definitely going to be better if I have to use the stairs.
But being on the most unlucky numbered floor is... interesting.
I'm not superstitious or do I believe in Myths.
Its just, let just put it as, interesting.

As for my present personal life,
I'm single, and happy.

The Past, Present, and Future. Part 1.

.THE PAST.

I was born on December 24,1991 at Nursing Home Hospital in Bangkok, Thailand
On the clock showed the time was 8:24 PM.
I was named Nabila.
Lived in Thailand for the next 4 years, then it was time to come back to Malaysia.
Then when my parents think it was old enough for me to start learning they sent me to
Tadika Sri Bahagia. (I think that was the name...)
After that in 1998, It is time for me to enter primary school.
So, I attended Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Midah (1).
I was in that school from Standard 1 until Standard 3.
I had to change school because we moved houses.
Then I went to Sekolah Kebangsaan Desa Baiduri in Standard 4,
but only stayed there for half the year.
My Father told us that we were moving.
Not just to another city, but to another country.
12 781 km.
It was that far.
We moved to Vancouver, Canada.
and I thought to myself, "Where on the map is that place."
I was ten, I don't even know the map of the world.
We took Malaysia Airlines from Kuala Lumpur International Airport to Los Angeles.
I'm guessing that it was LAX.
Our flight number was MH 0094 on May 30th,2001 at 3:15pm
My seat number was 18H.
After that we took Alaska Airlines to Vancouver,B.C.
It was AS 663 on May 31st, 2001 at 2:09pm.
I don't remember what time we landed in Vancouver but I know it was in the afternoon.
A limo took us to our hotel, we stayed there for about 2 months before finding a home on
W59th Avenue.
Autumn came along and it's time for school!
I was in Grade 5 and was place in Division 7 at Dr. R.E. McKechnie School.
My class teacher was Ms. MacCallum and Mr. de Verteuil.
We only stayed a year in that house before moving to W64th Avenue where we stayed for the next 4 Years.
When moving houses, we were out of the school's district, meaning I have to change school again.
David Lloyd George Elementary School became my next school.
Then, It's time for high school.
I attended Sir Winston Churchill Secondary School until Grade 9.
Its because its time for us to head back to the good ol' Malaysia.
Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Putrajaya Presint 11 (1)
became my last school.

For You

To whom it may concern.
I hope you know who you are after reading this.

Even if we're not one
two is always better.
I'd always think of you when someone is asked to be patient.

Even if its the end of the road.
A new one will emerge,
sooner or later.
I'm not the first,
nor the last.
It's better this way,
I cant bare to be called unfaithful.

Even though we're not that far apart
we barely see each other
You're busy with your studies and so am I.
After you're done with it,
all those lost times can be made up.
I'll be waiting for that moment to come

But right now,
get your head straight and focus on your goal.
I'm just a phone call away in case you lose your track.

I hope you know that you're my best friend,
and will always be.
I love my friends.

In Memory

IN MEMORY OF
YASMIN AHMAD
July 1st, 1958 - July 25th, 2009



Your movies brought all the races together,
no matter how many controversies it faced,
You stood your ground and stick to what you believe is right.
I respect that.

Your commercials made us stop and realize that
all of the actions we do should not be for granted.

You have proven that you are one of a kind.
No one can replace you,
they can be as good,
but they can never be you.

.Rest In Peace.
Our dearest Malaysian icon.

I Miss You

Puteri Nur Aqiliah

remember Laguku Untuk Mu?
remember talking on the phone until three in the morning?
remember me sending you to class?
remember string orchestra?
remember when we fought?
remember all out nicknames?
remember my jealousy towards everything?
remember that incident at the staircase?
remember i missing you because we didn't see each other for a day?
remember how much we cried?
remember me?

I Miss You.

You made me more patient.
You made me happy.
You made me sad.
You made me angry.
You made me miss you so much more!

You're my sister that I never had, and wished I have.
Thank You for everything
and
Sorry for everything

I'll be hard for us to see each other more often now
I'll be busy with University as you will be busy with SPM.
ALL THE BEST!

Maybe It IS Now

Well...
I guess fate just have to play its game
I've been offered to continue studying at UiTM
in Business Management.
and I'm going to take that offer.
Will be place at Kolej Alamanda on Jalan Klang Lama in KL.
Not too far from home.

Weeeee...
I'm going to be a college student?
the cashier at the movie theater hardly believed that I'm 18.

To Meen!
YAY!!! We got into UiTM!! So cool! Although you would be in Melaka.

To All My Friends.
If you still thinking where you will be going just wait,
your time will come,
and for those who already know where they are going,
at all the other university around the country,
GOOD LUCK!
Remember,
Difficulty in the beginning only shows that there will be simplicity at the end.

Failure

Once again I failed.
I don't know why I keep failing.
I'm a failure.
duh... that's why i keep failing.
I can't do anything right.
Even when i try.
it just doesn't work with me.
the first trial always never want me.
i always have to try for the second time
THEN, it happens.
It just so happens that i
Keep Moving Forward.
doesn't mean that i cant have what i want the first time around.
maybe life just hates me.
i don't really hate life...
do i?
as for right now,
i just don't know...
F*** life?
nahh..
not that angry.
just a lil pissed off.

My school

Its has been about 3 months since I left school for good.
The last school I went to is SMK Putrajaya Presint 11 (1).
This had given me a lot of first.
I'll name it later, now I'll give a brief history about this school.
This school is the 4th, I believe, Putrajaya school to be opened,
after Presint 8, 9, and 16.
It was open in 2006 and had only the form 2, 3, and 4. ( I think, someone correct me!)
The school was provided with a hall which is shared with the elementary school,
a surau, a cafeteria, an assembly hall, a lot of classes, music room
and the first in Putrajaya a special educational classes.
The current principal or headmistress is Datin Halimah Abd. Majid
who is also one of my friend's mother.
As for my history with this school.
I enter in late 2007, into 3 Ibnu Sina.
during that year all the third formers will be sitting for PMR.
which is a public examination.
where I did not sit for because of my late arrival to the school.
The students had only known me for "Canada."
which i soon hated to be called that.
Then i was call Bella for sometimes, the at last it become Nana.
in 2008 I was in 4 Ibnu Hayyan.
I made a lot of friends form that class.
I love it there! but unfortunately i could follow though with the studies.
which i later change in 5 Ibnu Hayyan in January 2009.
A brand new year and a brand new class.
this class was the second pure science class to sit for SPM.
I personally call the class The Sophomore Science.
Then the year fly by really fast.
I miss that school, kidda, like i said
it had given me a lot of first.

I want to personally thank my teachers who had to cope with my weird personality.
Pn. Ezan, En. Zaidi, Pn. Paridah, Pn. Hafizah, Pn. Radziah, Pn. Habibah,
Pn. Rusnizan, Pn. Siti Zamrah, Pn. Norzuraini, Pn. Munzarina, Pn. Zalina,
Cik Azliza, Pn. Emelda, En. Rashidan, Pn. Haliza, Pn. Asmerieda, Pn. Mai Zatul,
Pn. Hayati, Cik Chuah, Pn. Sharifah, Pn. Suzana, Pn. Janiza, Pn. Norhafizah,
Datin Halimah.

Not all these teachers taught me.
some teachers i feel personally close to.
String Orchestra teachers and Tun Hussein Onn teachers.

and too SMK Putrajaya Presint 9 (1),
I'm glad you didn't want me because I will never meet these awesome teachers and rockin' friends.

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The first I had in this particular school are as follows:

1. First public examination
2. First time I have a younger 'sister'
3. First time I felt I can keep in touch with my friends forever
4. First time going to a Malaysian High School.
5. First time to be not generally known as Faiz's sister

and many more only at this moment I can't remember.
most importantly is IFA.

Cats

The title says it all..
i love cats.. but sometimes i don't like them..
many reasons why i don't,
one of them because they scratch me..

The ones that are still living :

1. Penny
2. Yen
3. Simone
4. Girgirl
5. Lelen
6. Coffee
7. Cik Ma
8. Horlicks
9. Vico
10. Adel
11. Itchy
12. Nippon
    
13. Bo Boy
    
14. Didie
    

R.I.P :

1. Dollar
2. Pound (Acat)
   
3. Euro
4. Boyen
5. Theodore
6. alot of not named cats cause they die young...

Missing (presumed dead, or someone else take them) :

1. Fluffy
2. Alvin
3. Not Named

When I was a younger :

1. Sweety
2. Candy
3. Abu
4. Black
5. Campur
6. Tomok

As you can see I have/had a lot of cats.